Shag. Simple. Physical. That's all.
I found out that i can't survive without chocolate oreos, chicken abalone rice noodles, my mp3, psp and books in camp. Went for 5km run on Friday b4 booking out without recovering frm the body aching static training the day b4.
Outfield next week..argh!!
Went to IMM todae..leisure with mum, aunt and josh. Then, to my grandmother's place for dinner. Cabbed back to JP to get more food, some necessities and a visit to the library for the books. Back home now with my com trying to restore everything.
Sleepy but trying to put everything together.

Hi...invisibles! I haf not been updating for quite a while. Haf been kinda busy all these weeks. Now that the june evaluation is over...i guess some relaxation flows in.
I feel some kind of emptiness. I know its time to make choices. Its finally time to decide. Decide where i will go and what my future will hold. I know..i definitely know that they r limited. They r VERY limited for me. But what can i do? I can onli find the best way out.
I wonder whether my close ones will support me. I guess i can onli know at the veri last moment. The veri last moment of truth, of hope, of realization. The pathway set for me who knows? Onli god knows. Sometimes i got so clueless that i was praying someone else will be able to find a solution for me. But, i know. Its impossible. I haf to find my own answer.

Now i know the world is realli cruel. The more i dread it, the more u dun want it, the more it comes to u. It strikes u hard. It makes u feel nervous. It is not heaven's will. It is the devil within u. U cannot overcome it. U can onli face it with mixed feelings. It goes on bothering u after that. It damages ur power to get social.

I tried. I tried so hard. I tried almost 3 years ago. In fact, I haf been trying ever since i was born. Perhaps, i shouldn't even haf tried. I shld juz face whatever was presented to me. The unreal, the unlucky, the negativity.

ATEC

This week...quite packed. Lots of training for atec stage 1 for all the 1sir medics. Initially it was kinda boring becos we kept doing the same thing over and over again and returning late at night. But its still good for us as we got drilled with all the processes. Briefings, trainings and so on. Some outfields though. Is getting redcon 1 realli tt impt? I mean yea we train hard but what if we didnt get it? A disgrace? No one knows. Dug 2 shellscrapes early this morning. Supposed to haf off today becos all company line medics r on off as all of us r coming back for final prep on sunday afternoon. But i got to stay back juz to dig. Aniwae the evaluation is next week. I am nervous but pretty confident that i can do well if i am selected to be assessed.

Short, tired and peaceful week.
SIMS3~

Finally todae marks the day where i step down as jgl ops room medic cum runner. Able to come home..the feeling is unspeakable. However, next week i believe will be a small challenge. I shld be able to handle it. At least..i hope.

And yea...itouch deal went in juz last night. Hopefully if everything goes well, i shld be getting 200 dollars frm YW after we get our pay the coming month. Currently engrossed in DJ MAX for psp..i didnt like tt game at first but obviously i was psycho-ED! 9 more days to sims 3. looking forward to it real good.

Till then bye TANGO YANKEE OUT!!!!!!!!

Aw...unfortunately the ipod deal wif WK didn't go the way i expected. Well..nvm for now.
Currently on " exercise fatigue" till next thursday. I am realli tired.

I am tired. Of everything. I feel like sleeping, for 10 years maybe 20 years, till all unhappy memories and troubling worries disappear. Will this happen?